Monday, March 29, 2010

In Limbo

I hate not going somewhere. Being stuck. I hate not having a goal or a count down. Pretty much every part of pregnancy is a waiting game. The days leading up to your impending period are the slowest days of all time. And during those days I feel paralyzed. Not sure if we are going to have a baby in our future or not. And even though life goes on either way. I find myself completely stuck...waiting.
I'm definitely unmotivated and stationary right now. I don't even know how many weeks along I am, which means I can't google it and find out what strange bean or fruit my baby is the size of. I also don't know whether to refer to my belly as baby or babies. I feel like our whole future changes based on next weeks ultrasound. Even though life has to go on either way.

4 comments:

  1. Maybe the long wait will make you so glad for news, you don't care what the news is. You could go back to calling your belly your little Tic-Tac. That's nice and unspecific. I understand what you mean about waiting. God seems to give those of us (me too!) with the least patience the most to wait for!

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  2. I can relate, Mama. Limbo stinks. Is there any way you can urge your midwife to be seen earlier? 2 weeks is a really long time - they should be able to tell something earlier because babies develop so quickly in the early stages. Stress isn't good for you so if you can use that as a reason to be seen earlier, I'd use it! Still thinking of you lots and hoping for the outcome you're hoping for.

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  3. hehe -- you should call belly tic-tac again because if its one baby it's tic-tac. Or, two babies would be tic and tac!

    ok I think my brain has melted away.

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  4. I'm looking forward to hearing about the results!

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