I'm definitely unmotivated and stationary right now. I don't even know how many weeks along I am, which means I can't google it and find out what strange bean or fruit my baby is the size of. I also don't know whether to refer to my belly as baby or babies. I feel like our whole future changes based on next weeks ultrasound. Even though life has to go on either way.
Monday, March 29, 2010
In Limbo
I hate not going somewhere. Being stuck. I hate not having a goal or a count down. Pretty much every part of pregnancy is a waiting game. The days leading up to your impending period are the slowest days of all time. And during those days I feel paralyzed. Not sure if we are going to have a baby in our future or not. And even though life goes on either way. I find myself completely stuck...waiting.
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Maybe the long wait will make you so glad for news, you don't care what the news is. You could go back to calling your belly your little Tic-Tac. That's nice and unspecific. I understand what you mean about waiting. God seems to give those of us (me too!) with the least patience the most to wait for!
ReplyDeleteI can relate, Mama. Limbo stinks. Is there any way you can urge your midwife to be seen earlier? 2 weeks is a really long time - they should be able to tell something earlier because babies develop so quickly in the early stages. Stress isn't good for you so if you can use that as a reason to be seen earlier, I'd use it! Still thinking of you lots and hoping for the outcome you're hoping for.
ReplyDeletehehe -- you should call belly tic-tac again because if its one baby it's tic-tac. Or, two babies would be tic and tac!
ReplyDeleteok I think my brain has melted away.
I'm looking forward to hearing about the results!
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