Please don't get me wrong. I know life goes on. People get pregnant, people have babies. I'm not mad at them, I'm sad for me. I also don't want to people think that they need to not tell me about their joy over a pregnancy, or that sort of stuff. But it hurts and it's something that can't be helped.
In talking with this girl I was reminded of things that didn't help in my time of intense grief and things that did. So I wanted to share. I don't want to share this and have friends feel like they said the wrong thing or didn't do the right thing. I just want to share because I know that I felt completely at a loss for what to say when friends miscarried and now I know what to do.
*These are my opinions, and it is different for every person.
Things to do:
1.Bring that person some food.
(In this area, all I can say is DO it. Just do it.)
I was so emotionally empty and so desperately sad that making a meal was the furthest thing from my mind. But I was so hungry. I remember the Tuesday I found out that the babies were gone, I had like 5 people offer to bring me dinner. What a blessing! The only thing was I was too tired to say yes. I was too tired to coordinate. So I said "No thank you." All the time kicking myself because I knew I needed it. Then my friend Monique called me and said, "I'm bringing you spaghetti right now." Just like that. She did.
I had 4 different friends just drop by food without giving us even the option to say no, and that was the best.
2.Look that person in the eyes and say, "I'm so sorry."
That is all we want to hear.
I can pretty much tell you every single person who wrote even the smallest comment on my facebook. Every single text, call, facebook post was encouraging. Just because a million people said the same thing, doesn't mean your words wont matter.
4.Go over to that person's home and watch a movie with them.
I was so lonely and so brain dead. So even though I craved company, I didn't want to feel like I had to entertain someone.
My friend Bethany came over twice to watch movies with me. She brought ice cream both times. It was exactly what I needed.
Just because the physical healing is over in "two weeks" doesn't mean that we have gotten over it.
It had been two weeks and I thought every single person had forgotten about it. No one asked me how I was doing in that empathetic, concerned way. Everything seemed back to normal...for everyone else.
I just was sick inside and I felt like screaming, "I'm so not over this! Someone care!"
My pastor's wife took my hand that night and with such care in her eyes, genuinely asked how I was doing. I cried and it felt so good to not pretend to be "right".
6.Who cares if it has been a day or a year, ask someone about the baby they lost and I guarantee it will mean the world to them.
What not to do/say:
1.Do not say, "Well, it's probably best, there was probably something wrong with that baby."
Even though it might be true, that just doesn't help anything.
2.Do not say, "There was never really a baby."
This is not true. I believe the moment an egg and sperm meet, there is a soul.
3.Just don't try to lessen the pain. It's a sad thing. Don't try to make it less sad.
4.Don't talk about it all working out in the end. Or God's plan.
Again, even though it's true, it just seems like you are trying to lessen the pain.
And do not do this:
When waiting for my DandC to be scheduled, I asked the receptionist at my midwifery if we could do it that day because I had a baby sitter for Barclay. She looked at me and said,
"You have a baby?" (With a very condescending look on her face)
"Yes, a 14 month old."
"You must be SO relieved that this pregnancy isn't working out!"
(WHAT?!?! What is your problem lady? Why would you ever say that to someone?!)
And to make it better after seeing the state of shock my face was in...
"I have a friend with two babies under 2 years and it is CRAZY."
Thanks lady, but I would take crazy over nothing any day.