Sunday, June 20, 2010

Unquenchable Joy!

I am pregnant.

I'm in shock!

I can't stop the joy from overflowing from my heart.

Just a few days ago I wrote this post. I had started my period and was so disappointed. I grieve for about two days, then I decided to move on. While I was moving on, I was feeling pretty awful. The weird, tired, annoyed with everything awful that I have only experienced with pregnancy. I was riding home from a goodwill trip with my mom and sister, we had a movie night planned and I simply couldn't imagine not going to bed at 8 o'clock that night I was so tired. I opted to back out and go home. I thought to myself, I'm either pregnant or I have mono. I had one test left from a three pack under my sink. I had also noticed that my period was really odd and never really got going. The next morning I took a test and was greeted with two pink lines.

I was in such shock and Noah was out of town so I just sat there in awe of what I was looking at. Then started the trickle of fear in my heart. Was I miscarrying again because of the bleeding? The joy that I felt the last two pregnancies had lept forth from my heart and I couldn't contain it. I sat there for about 20 minutes and just felt the fear pushing the joy out.

Throughout the day as I told friends and family the news (I know, I cannot keep a secret to save my life), and talked to nurses, doctors, midwives. The joy started winning.

I've decided to choose joy and to celebrate this life that God has BLESSED me with, however long that may be!

10 comments:

  1. Yay! So happy for you! I will be praying for you!

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  2. Yeah, yeah, yeah!!! We are going to be due right around the same time, too! I am so happy for you!

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  3. :)))))))))) I LOVE THIS!!!! praying for you sweet friend!!!!!!!!

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  4. Awesome news - CONGRATS, Mama! And a little bleeding could just be implantation bleeding - no worries! I got pregnant with Ben 2 cycles after my first miscarriage and obviously he's healthy as can be! Try to relax and enjoy it - you deserve it :)

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  5. I saw the title of your post and thought, "But she just had her period! There's no way..."

    I am so glad I was wrong. Congratulations! Praying for a healthy baby George in a few months!

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  6. YAY!!! So happy for you Helen Joy! I know, of all people, you will be the one to enjoy every single second! Such a blessing!

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  7. Yay, HJ!! So happy for you and Noah!!

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  8. Oh Helen Joy!! I just love you so much and wish I was there to share in your excitement!!!!

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  9. I'll be praying for a safe pregnancy for the baby (and you) and also that you will be able to continue to have peace and joy without worrying about what might or might not happen.

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