I'm in shock!
I can't stop the joy from overflowing from my heart.
Just a few days ago I wrote this post. I had started my period and was so disappointed. I grieve for about two days, then I decided to move on. While I was moving on, I was feeling pretty awful. The weird, tired, annoyed with everything awful that I have only experienced with pregnancy. I was riding home from a goodwill trip with my mom and sister, we had a movie night planned and I simply couldn't imagine not going to bed at 8 o'clock that night I was so tired. I opted to back out and go home. I thought to myself, I'm either pregnant or I have mono. I had one test left from a three pack under my sink. I had also noticed that my period was really odd and never really got going. The next morning I took a test and was greeted with two pink lines.
I was in such shock and Noah was out of town so I just sat there in awe of what I was looking at. Then started the trickle of fear in my heart. Was I miscarrying again because of the bleeding? The joy that I felt the last two pregnancies had lept forth from my heart and I couldn't contain it. I sat there for about 20 minutes and just felt the fear pushing the joy out.
Throughout the day as I told friends and family the news (I know, I cannot keep a secret to save my life), and talked to nurses, doctors, midwives. The joy started winning.
I've decided to choose joy and to celebrate this life that God has BLESSED me with, however long that may be!