It's funny because all my life I've wanted a lot of children. I was thinking 5 or 6. But with the kind of pregnancies I have, I have really be convinced that maybe it's a selfish thing for me to want another baby. Because it would mean me being almost totally out of commission for 10 months. That means a lot of stress for my husband and family. That means 1o months of not getting to fully invest in my boys lives. Plus, God has given me so much contentment with my two boys. I would have never thought I'd be the mom of just two boys! But now it seems right.
I'm not saying we're done for sure...but I am going to be selling my maternity clothes on craigslist and giving away 99% of outgrown baby clothes.
Adoption is definitely a possibility and I'm not closing the door to God's will for us to have another one of our own, but for now I am letting go of baby things as they are outgrown and enjoy this now time and most of all enjoying feeling good instead of terrible:-)