For lots of various reasons, about 2 months ago I almost completely stopped breastfeeding. That sudden stopping of the hormones really has challenged me big time in my emotions. I would say the past 2 months have been rather tough and exhausting. I don't quite know what to think of it. Am I just going through normal hormone withdrawals like every other mother does? Is it more? Should I try to get back on medication? I have yet to feel suicidal. But listless and hopeless? Yes. I have also had lots of bad and angry fights with my husband. I hate being this way. My head is all fuzzy and I don't like myself. I'm pretty sure Noah doesn't like myself much either.
So my story is not over...sigh.