I just want to leave everyone so that they can get back to their lives and I don't have interrupt or interfere with them.
I want to go far away from anyone who will recognize me, far away from people who ask how I am feeling...because I cannot give a nice answer.
I am really really really having a hard time lately. I feel like my life (and the lives of those I love) have been put on hold for two months! I am tired of complaining, tired of hurting, tired of thinking.
Days go by like minutes and I am left in my bathtub clutching my swollen, achy stomach wondering how I can go another day.
I just want to be able to call up family and friends once I am in the hospital and I don't want to have any contact with anyone until then...because I know I annoy them. I know they roll their eyes every time I groan with a contraction. I know they are all just sick of me being sick. I am sick of me being sick. I am sick of me.
I probably wont be on facebook or blogging until this baby decides to be born, only for the sole purpose of saving myself the embarrassment of being a winy baby.