14 Weeks

14 Weeks

Dear Sweet Pea,

This past week we explored San Diego with your Aunt Katie Beth. It was so much fun! We ate yogurt every day, snorkeled in the freezing water, biked, went to Sea World, and saw so many exciting things.

This was the first week in months that I felt like getting out of bed, so that worked out well. I started feeling very awkward this week. As in, sleeping on my stomach makes feel like I'm squishing you. I also feel very strange walking around. Almost like I'm fake pregnant. I'm showing a good amount but it's still so squishy and I feel like you're still so small. I felt you move a LOT this week. So much one day I was actually worried. You were probably so excited with all the nutrients you were getting.

I think about you nearly every second and I cannot wait because in 3 weeks we find out if you're a Lucy or a Sullivan:-)

I love you precious baby. Keep growing!

Love your Mama

I'm Back!

In more ways than one.

We got in late last night from a wonderful trip to visit my sister in San Diego, CA.

And during the course of the trip, my extreme, crippling morning sickness has subsided and I am left with manageable, regular morning sickness. I'll take it!

I feel like I'm emerging from a dark storm that has lasted more than half the year...the perpetual first trimester. I counted it up and so far this year I have been in the first trimester for 25 weeks. That just sucks.

So I'm feeling better, I'm feeling like blogging, getting out of bed, maybe even eating! So stay tuned because I think I'm back to blogging:-)

I'll leave you this photo I snapped of a very cool tourist we saw on the California coast.

12 Weeks Pregnant

Pregnancy Highlights:

How Far Along: 12 Weeks

Best Moment this week: Feeling the baby move with my hand yesterday.

Movement: Yes:-)

Food Craving: The things that actually stayed down this week...Japanese Chicken Salad and black eyed peas.

What I miss: Eating food and being able to go a day without puking.

Sleep: I've been sleeping either like a rock (thank you unisom!) or horribly. Mostly it is because I have a thousand bug bites all over my legs and also the nausea...and also the peeing.

What I am looking forward to: Flying to CA next week to see my sister!

I've been meaning to blog...wanting to blog, but every time I click the "new post" button, and am staring at that blank white screen, all I want to write is, "I'm so freaking sick!"

And I'm pretty sure everyone...friends, family, neighbors, blog readers, EVERYONE would love it if I would just feel better and get on with my life. I would in fact like that myself.

It's been a really REALLY hard summer. Being this sick affects every single thing. I feel like friendships have been stretched and some have been shoved to the back burner. Because I just do not have the energy or the desire to do anything outside of the bare essentials.

I feel like a very uninvolved mother, as I lay on the couch calling out to Barclay to come back. Or watching sister after sister do all the things I want to be doing, but simply cannot.

I feel like a very selfish wife as I cannot cook dinner, shop, clean, even wake up sometimes I'm so sick.

BUT the good news is, I am 12 weeks pregnant tomorrow and I am carrying a precious little one inside of me. One that I've felt move already. And I KNOW it will be worth it.

I had a pretty scary, scare about a week ago. After a whole day of really bad stomach cramps, I was just editing photos and I heard a pop and was all of a sudden wet. I ran to the bathroom and was shocked to find that a mixture of water, mucus and blood everywhere. I thought my water had broken and I knew at 11 weeks, there wasn't anything they could do. I was so sure this pregnancy was over. After talking with my midwife, she said I was either going to miscarry again or that perhaps a cyst had ruptured. It's been a week and no more blood and lots more morning sickness...so I'm assuming I still have a healthy baby inside. And I'll take that any day over being sick.